The Kit Kat Club

This first week back has been terrible. And I know there's nothing I can do about it. I need to accept that it happened, and it sucked, and move on. But as you may or may not have noticed, I suck at moving on worse than anyone else I know.

I just have this major issue with disappointing myself. Most of the things I screw up don't adversely affect the people around me. They're not the ones making me feel guilty. I just feel like an unworthy human being 75% of the time. I don't work hard enough in my classes, I sleep too much, I don't have a job, I'm just not GOOD. I don't know what to do about this. I really don't. If anyone has suggestions, please let me know >.>

All in all, here's shit what I've missed this week: My Research Methods lab on Monday. Research Methods class on Wednesday. And both my Jewish History AND Educational Psych classes today. Yeah, don't judge, trust me, I'm judging myself enough for the rest of the world right now. I suck. Someone wanna shoot me?

And I've got this really fun weekend coming up (Jim's birthday, Sandhya's birthday, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Drag Ball), but I absolutely cannot feel like I've EARNED it. Like, do I deserve to have this fun? Not really.

I don't know. And now Cute Stoner Boy is IMing me and have I mentioned that I don't know how to talk to boys? At all?

Argh, what do I do. With my life.